Don't rock the boat baby

Change is hard. It's hard to go out on a limb and do something out of your comfort zone. Am I happy being fat? No. Comfortable? Yes. It's not scary, it's easy. A big part of my fear of  change is changing the family dynamic. It's not just me wanting to try new things, live a new life... it's my family, and my husband. He's not on the same page as I am about all things. He supports me in my weight loss efforts. He doesn't think we need to try new hobbies or go to new places or meet new people. I have wondered over the years if part of my failure to live the life I want to lead is fear. Fear of what will happen. Fear of how our relationship will be if we change. I am not the leader here, I am not the strong one. I do not push the issue on things. What happens when I assert myself? I know the dangers of a relationship wrecked by people growing apart, changing at different levels/times. People being unhappy with their "new" partner. I need to get over the fear. I need to be happy with myself AND in my relationship. I need to shake things up, be more assertive, make the changes I need to make and hope that communication, understanding, and love can conquer all. Every day I pray for the strength to be a better woman, a better mother, and a better wife.